That smile, that was all I fell for,
truly,
cause that was the only feeling you shared with me,
and the only place I could elate in.
Maybe I should have fell for how you are,
maybe your past,
maybe the dreams that you shared
or maybe how I was
when you were there.
But then it would be a lie,
a sham somehow,
and your memories always betrayed me
whenever I tried to look back on them.
Maybe that’s why I could never come to love
anything more
after you left,
just your smile,
just that one curve
that always managed to stop my heart,
like we were caught in an infinite loop,
and I could just vanish in that sky.
The memories do push me on
to place where I could be with you,
but that feeling seems just a lapse
of a moment I stopped in time,
and you,
you are that ever changing mystery
whose layers I could never completely unravel.
And so, I just can’t take living in a lie
where you could never be real,
for I could never recreate something so dynamic,
and blissful.
There’s just that smile,
that one thing that never changed
in the graveyard of forgetful memories
and misleading past,
in the hopeless world of fake existence
and one where you are
unreal.
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