Goodbye.
That’s how his letter started. I had known that day was upon us, since the day we met, but never thought of it to happen so soon. Not when we were finally happy!
In the brightest nights
and the darkest shades,
we walked together
through the roads untouched, unscathed,
every time a new journey,
every time with something new.
Life had not been easy for us, not when all we got was betrayal from those we loved and those we thought cared enough. And maybe that’s how we found ourselves chained to a lonely chair in some forsaken closed up space.
But one day, life sparkled its colors in contrast to the monochrome life we were living. It brought two weeping souls together, to show us how similar we were in dissimilarity.
The ways never did collide
for the destination we had in mind,
but the road still went along
for a life we dreamed to abide.
“That song, it’s my favorite.” I had sparkled up as an old nineties song started playing in the cafe.
“It was the best by Jagjit.” Aayan made a comment, probably for the first time to a stranger. If you’d known him before, you would say that’s impossible. But he did, and that’s where our defined reality collapsed.
“Not the best, but close enough.” Almost a disagreement, that’s how it started for us, but once it did, the world transformed into something ecstatic.
Hands held, eyes shut together,
we followed the trail of our hearts
that our love shaped for us,
and we just lived in our song,
in the rhythm of each other’s smile.
“Stop judging yourself from the perspective of someone else, and you’ve made the greatest and most beautiful change for yourself.” That was enough to make me fall for you, and I’ll never come to regret that. I’ll never feel crippled again.
It was short, and I was meant to part,
but you still tagged along
for that painful ride.
How much I wish we had more time! I didn’t know that the end I was waiting for would take you away from me, and I would again be left stranded in this lonely world, I didn’t know love was destined to be ever transient and painfully happy.
But believe me,
the moments we shared
were the best of life,
the kisses we stole
took away all of my breathe,
the dreams turned into a fantasy
and you made that my reality.
We were alone, but yeah, we took away each other’s loneliness. The world maybe lonely, but after meeting you, I was never.
Life is never easy, not when we’re actually trying to live. But there comes a time in everyone’s life when they find something to live for, and it’s that single string that makes everything else worthwhile. The hardships begin to seem fruitful, and a new light starts shining upon us. We start to smile, honestly.
I lived whole
in the shadow of our memories,
I breathed in the happiness
of feeling those beats
close to my heart.
And I did too, even when end was near, I was happy. Even on a bed that reeked of death, in a place that we despised together and among faces that could never be happy, we were happy. I was happy, for you chose your love which was much more than the hatred that you held within. You chose me, and that was enough for me to fight death alongside you.
So, for the sake of myself
that breathes in you,
a part of me
and a part of us in this,
live along
and just be free.
Did he die? Yes, he was destined to, from the day he chose to ignore how he should have been cared, and thought that mere chemicals could save him. But he lived too, in the little amount of time that made him see a whole new world, that made him pull out of all his fears and fight for something that made sense.
Did we? No, never.
Let those times guide you
to a better world without me,
to a place where I see you happy,
and I’m just relieved
to still feel that smile
flowing through the winds
that cross those boundaries of reality
and reach me!
He lives in a place only the insane would go, and only the courageous could find sanctity in. He shines through me, and through him, I rage at life, rising from the ashes where I had given up hope, among faces that repelled me.
In the darkest nights
and hopeless shades,
fight on, live on
to keep us alive,
and laugh like there’s no reason
to fall back and live in a lie,
cause I’ll be waiting for the little shine
that your happy existence will bring,
for a box of hope
that I have in you,
for a smile that sparks from our tears
and the waters that break
only to remember us.
Now, he lives in me, and I in the life that we made for us, together.
And me,
I’ll just be eternal in you,
breathing through the ashes of warmth
that my light would bring to you,
shining in the fire
that our love would still keep alive.
I’ll just be there,
forever in us.
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