Like the promises you made
for the destination we never knew of,
and faces you showed
for reasons we drew together,
I kind of knew when the smiles changed
and everything sweet became fake,
when your glare shifted to stare
and the only relief I had was looking on
and finding the beyond
where you didn’t exist to hurt
and I didn’t care to falter.
But where did the lines change
to make us a disaster?
Maybe the call I didn’t take,
or the mood swings that defined me,
maybe the reason you didn’t like,
or the excuse you never accepted!
There were infinite reasons
for a season that made me cry
but I had that anger and hatred to go
build the fire that kept you away.
So, thankyou, thankyou in making me believe
yet again
that everything changes,
that constant was just the time that hadn’t come
and a place that I kept myself sane.
And when I lifted the reigns and let myself reveal
you were all but gone
among the faces I couldn’t keep.
And when push came to conquer
you were again a stranger
I couldn’t keep my eyes on.
·poetry