Dear Best Friend,
I’m Sorry, for I don’t show up so often!
Over the years, you have been complaining about me, a lot. Usually it is my fault, and every time I do agree to it. You scold me, and after about fifteen minutes of that crazy shit, we are back to that same place we have always managed to go.
Even after so many set backs, you have still managed to keep me straight and have kept yourself saner than myself, and for that, I truly salute you.
I know I’m not even the average example of a model friend, but somehow, you have stuck close to me, ignoring all those faults that made me this. And for that, thank you so much.
You know, looking back to the time before we met, had someone asked if we might ever be friends, I would have straight on rejected that. I mean, I was never a ‘talking’ kind of person. And I never knew that I could be one. I was a selfish narcissist who only cared for what’s on my plate, and the rest of the world could just go to hell. And I managed with that for a long time.
But you seeped into me like water seeps into hidden rocks, breaking into me, little by little, sediment by sediment, until all I could do is crack in front of you, and we would both traverse the wide ends of myself. Maybe that was a boon, or maybe just another freaking miracle, but you managed to open doors that I didn’t even know existed. And you broke through walls that my consciousness had built for me.
Thank you bestie, for without you, I might not have been here today.
The stories of us vary over time and space, each little fragment carrying another new tragedy and adventure in it. And the seeds of those we have promised to take to our grave.
But on this day, I would like to share one of the most crucial secret of mine.
Do you remember my questions? Yeah, the irritating kind! Because if you do, then you have been that special person for me, for whom I always wanted to be the most irritating friend, something to remember me by. And you still stuck close to me, tagging along with this mind, and laughing on my so so ‘bad bad jokes’.
And you know bestie, I started it maybe as a ritual, but after a while, it was only to make sure that even when I become the most irritating kind of myself, you are still there to take that leap with me. Because that is what you are for me, my saviors. And maybe I don’t express it much too often, but you are the closest anyone could come to me, and I admire you all to the limits I stopped admiring myself.
I know it’s kind of cheesy and unexpected, coming out of my mouth, but for once, I wanted to show how much you mean for me, how much I care for you.
And even though no words could ever express that, I hope my scribblings spoke to you at least some of it.
As I look around the corner of my life…
I see you all, ever ready to strife…
As I move past the moments of bliss…
Every hardship of mine turns stiff…
Cause you all never leave my side…
Cause you’ll always be there for my fight…
As will I be for yours’…
O my dear friends, o my dear besties…
Listen to this childish heart…
Promise we’ll never be apart…
The reasons may crumble and the sky may fall down…
But we’ll always be the crazy people
who never let go of each other’s voices…
Distances separate us, communications distort…
But we still manage to be the same self
as we take our own walk of secrets…
Cause its those faces that never surrender
for mistakes that always manage to come back
and we still fight around the fall
even after a thousand, thousand failure..
Cause it’s these bonds of ours’…
That we’ll never let anyone devour…
Cause it’s these moments
that nobody could ever diminish…
That was something I wrote way back, in honor of everything we have accomplished together. But on this day, let me present my heart to you all. Thank you all for being in my life, and pushing me to be my better self.
For you all, a thousand times over.
Love.
Lucifer’s Whisper